no longer in italy

I've been sitting trying to write my statement of intent for Teach for America for a few days now and I find myself with complete and total writer's block. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm not passionate about the subject, I actually think that I'm too passionate. I care too much. I can't figure out how to put in word some of the things that are most important to me. I can talk about this application and what I want to do and what I think is important for days but actually writing it all down so someone else can see it from my perspective just feels impossible. I was talking on facebook chat to a friend and I tried to tell her my main ideas and beliefs and she said she you know what you want to say... and I do I just don't want it to sound cliche. How many other applicants were inspired as children and want to pass that on? Probably all of them.

Really I guess I'm just complaining because I want this so bad. Everyone tells me, Oh I hear its really hard and blah blah blah. I'm looking for hard. I'm looking for a challenge. What is the point of something if you don't have to work for it? I've found that nothing worthwhile in my life has come easily. As much as people may not believe it I do work for hard for everything I do. I watch the way children are treated and schools are run and I just want to be that one person who takes the extra minute to listen to them. If puppy love is still love to the puppy then kid's problems are still catastrophic for them at that point in their life. Yes, we and they will all have to face bigger things but for that moment the fact that they are upset is probably the most upset they have ever been. What a better way for me to spend my time? What am I really going to do with a music degree? Why not be that person who lives for the kids in their classroom. If the education system needs improvement it needs to start with its educators. Teachers are the ones that have the power to inspire their students. Why not take the naive fresh college graduates and throw them in a classroom where they can use all their hopes and dreams for making a difference in this world on changing the life of one child. If after a year of teaching I found one kid who had been changed, who had some more confidence in their own abilities then the long hours, the spending money out of my own pocket for the classroom and the constant frustration that no one else sees what I see would be worth it. In the end if the future of this world depends on our children why not invest everything we have in them. Every child deserves a chance to have all the tools they could possibly need to make it in the world.